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Decision Making 101
Nov. 14th, 2011 09:48 amI had a bit of an epiphany on the bus this morning, as you do. I've got a lot of anxiety right now - last night's post is a prime example - and a good chunk of it is tied up in other people. I know what I want, but I'm afraid of my choices being judged and found wanting by my parents/friends/strangers on the street. It adds to my confusion, it adds to my stress, and it's a terrible way to live.
I'm going to try and panic less and make decisive decisions more. I'm also going to try remembering that my anxiety and depression are an Actual Thing and be kinder to myself. I'm also x2 going to try and stop panicking all over this journal, it's never as cathartic as I think it's going to be.
I'm going to cancel tomorrow's interview - seeing it through isn't a good choice for me. This'd be true even if I hadn't woken up voiceless and coughing.
Next decision: do I still take tomorrow off (I still have 2.5 days PTO and won't get it otherwise) or do I come in and get some work done (there's a lot of it). Hmmm.
I'm going to try and panic less and make decisive decisions more. I'm also going to try remembering that my anxiety and depression are an Actual Thing and be kinder to myself. I'm also x2 going to try and stop panicking all over this journal, it's never as cathartic as I think it's going to be.
I'm going to cancel tomorrow's interview - seeing it through isn't a good choice for me. This'd be true even if I hadn't woken up voiceless and coughing.
Next decision: do I still take tomorrow off (I still have 2.5 days PTO and won't get it otherwise) or do I come in and get some work done (there's a lot of it). Hmmm.
