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effexNo recent events today, honey. I have a headache.
* I also have allergies, which has never happened to me before. I am not dealing with it gracefully.
* We do have internet, sort of - Time Warner Guy told us something had gotten into the walls, eaten ourinternet cables, and the wait for repair was so long we'd be better off waiting until we could hook up our new apartment. My Dad's let us borrow an AT&T 3G wireless thingit which works as long as we don't stress it out too much. The PC unit hooked up to the TV doesn't get wireless, though, so we're still show-less (and I can't work from home).
The lack of TV's made us pretty productive, actually. Dee's taken up jogging.
* The Trouble With Tolerance by Tim Wise: So what is tolerance anyway? As I see it, tolerance means I don't burn your church down, or tie you to a fence and leave you to die, or drag you down a dirt road behind my pickup. It means I tolerate your existence and little else. I let you live and breathe for another day. How nice of me.
* Perry Moore's Who Cares About the Death of a Gay Superhero Anyway?: A History of Gays in Comic Books. By which he means the mainstream DC and Marvel 'verses with some Dark Horse and Image thrown in, but it's still a comprehensive and depressing list. [saves commentary on Moore's gender issues for another time, progress for women in comics my spandex clad ass]
* Queer Tropes by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
neo_prodigy: As many of you know, June is the month of LGBTQ Pride and I couldn't think of a better time to call out a few tropes that inundate comics and media when it comes LGBTQ characters/themes. Basic but a good read nonetheless.
* On The Nation, Brace Yourself: Good News on Africa: But in a world in which the conventional wisdom that Africa is a basket case is so strong, it's hard to break through. The Sala-i-Martin/Pinkovskiy paper "is going to produce a storm, but unfortunately it will be just among the academic types," Chege predicted. So far, it has been more of a mild breeze than a storm, but Chege was right in foreseeing that the study wouldn't get much attention beyond the world of professional economists. Fits in well with How to Write About Africa and a couple TEDTalks I need to dig up.
* A fourth season has been announced for Torchwood. It'll be airing on Starz. I... don't think I'll be watching it (unless fandom convinces me otherwise [peers through fingers]).
* LGBTFest fic is back from the editors and I'm 1/4 of the way through revisions (there are a lot) - super exciting! It's only ~4000 words long, about the same as Recoil and Grace, but I've accepted that as my current limit. Gotta be able to handle this length before I can get all those epics out of my head.
* This article was a kick in the pants and the... spark, I guess? For a series of personal revelations about myself and my creativity.
I went something like this - my design portfolio is also unimpressive, because being a designer at my current job doesn't exactly call for creativity but also because I haven't done anything to practice, or play, or for the sheer joy of it, in over a year. In fact, I haven't done anything I love (aside from reading and brief bursts of writing) in over a year: no drawing, no painting, no singing (I've even stopped singing at the bus stops), no crafting, no drumming, no weight lifting, no biking, not even any video games.
And that's because, no matter how much I deny it, my depression did not magically disappear in my teens. I did really well in college but the four years since have been this, idk, ever tightening spiral of worthlessness, anxiety, and inactivity. And it sucks to admit it, because thought I was managing (I'm better now then I was two years ago - the first stretch out of college was bad) - I have a job I'm good at, I have friends, I get around the city okay, I'm functioning ('but just barely' my mom said when I talked to her this morning which, 1) thanks, Mom and 2) no one felt the need to point this out?).
I'm tired of just functioning. I'm tired of leaving all these gifts, all these things that bring me joy, on the shelf for 'later.' I'm not ready to go back on meds [let me tell you about my childhood sometime] and therapy is expensive but there are things I can do - start taking St John's Wort, alter my diet, start a exercise program that focuses on having fun (weight lifting is fun!), get back into the habit of regular meditation. Deny myself less and take care of myself more. Take back the things that are mine.
I'm feeling hopeful about it.
* HikaGo post will go up when I get back from lunch! Mmm, lunch.
* I also have allergies, which has never happened to me before. I am not dealing with it gracefully.
* We do have internet, sort of - Time Warner Guy told us something had gotten into the walls, eaten our
The lack of TV's made us pretty productive, actually. Dee's taken up jogging.
* The Trouble With Tolerance by Tim Wise: So what is tolerance anyway? As I see it, tolerance means I don't burn your church down, or tie you to a fence and leave you to die, or drag you down a dirt road behind my pickup. It means I tolerate your existence and little else. I let you live and breathe for another day. How nice of me.
* Perry Moore's Who Cares About the Death of a Gay Superhero Anyway?: A History of Gays in Comic Books. By which he means the mainstream DC and Marvel 'verses with some Dark Horse and Image thrown in, but it's still a comprehensive and depressing list. [saves commentary on Moore's gender issues for another time, progress for women in comics my spandex clad ass]
* Queer Tropes by
neo_prodigy: As many of you know, June is the month of LGBTQ Pride and I couldn't think of a better time to call out a few tropes that inundate comics and media when it comes LGBTQ characters/themes. Basic but a good read nonetheless.* On The Nation, Brace Yourself: Good News on Africa: But in a world in which the conventional wisdom that Africa is a basket case is so strong, it's hard to break through. The Sala-i-Martin/Pinkovskiy paper "is going to produce a storm, but unfortunately it will be just among the academic types," Chege predicted. So far, it has been more of a mild breeze than a storm, but Chege was right in foreseeing that the study wouldn't get much attention beyond the world of professional economists. Fits in well with How to Write About Africa and a couple TEDTalks I need to dig up.
* A fourth season has been announced for Torchwood. It'll be airing on Starz. I... don't think I'll be watching it (unless fandom convinces me otherwise [peers through fingers]).
* LGBTFest fic is back from the editors and I'm 1/4 of the way through revisions (there are a lot) - super exciting! It's only ~4000 words long, about the same as Recoil and Grace, but I've accepted that as my current limit. Gotta be able to handle this length before I can get all those epics out of my head.
* This article was a kick in the pants and the... spark, I guess? For a series of personal revelations about myself and my creativity.
I went something like this - my design portfolio is also unimpressive, because being a designer at my current job doesn't exactly call for creativity but also because I haven't done anything to practice, or play, or for the sheer joy of it, in over a year. In fact, I haven't done anything I love (aside from reading and brief bursts of writing) in over a year: no drawing, no painting, no singing (I've even stopped singing at the bus stops), no crafting, no drumming, no weight lifting, no biking, not even any video games.
And that's because, no matter how much I deny it, my depression did not magically disappear in my teens. I did really well in college but the four years since have been this, idk, ever tightening spiral of worthlessness, anxiety, and inactivity. And it sucks to admit it, because thought I was managing (I'm better now then I was two years ago - the first stretch out of college was bad) - I have a job I'm good at, I have friends, I get around the city okay, I'm functioning ('but just barely' my mom said when I talked to her this morning which, 1) thanks, Mom and 2) no one felt the need to point this out?).
I'm tired of just functioning. I'm tired of leaving all these gifts, all these things that bring me joy, on the shelf for 'later.' I'm not ready to go back on meds [let me tell you about my childhood sometime] and therapy is expensive but there are things I can do - start taking St John's Wort, alter my diet, start a exercise program that focuses on having fun (weight lifting is fun!), get back into the habit of regular meditation. Deny myself less and take care of myself more. Take back the things that are mine.
I'm feeling hopeful about it.
* HikaGo post will go up when I get back from lunch! Mmm, lunch.
